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[18 Feb 2010|09:09pm]

I've been a vegetarian for almost a year now and I think my eating disorder is coming back. I've been on medication for depression for about a month and a half but I just feel disgusting with myself whenever I eat. I. Am. Such. A. Fuck. Up.
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[12 Feb 2010|12:49pm]

So, I've had an eating disorder since I was 14. I'm 22 now. It comes and goes I suppose, to an extent, but the guilt of it never does. There has never been a time where I have not repeated in my head everything I have eaten.

I suppose I have Bulemia/Anorexia. And I don't want help for it which is the saddest part. But If I ever discover that someone else has it, I just feel so sad for them and I would never think of encouraging anyone to continue down the same path that I have gone down because it's terrible to hate yourself so much. I hope this isn't a community like that.

I'm not vegan, I'm vegetarian; can I still post here? I need somewhere to post. All those other communities seem to be communities that want to encourage eating disorders, and while I don't want help, I don't want to be a part of that.

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calling raw vegans! [17 Jun 2009|12:14am]

Can anyone point me to some good recipe sites or books for raw vegans?  I am going to go raw for 30 days starting next week, but I would like to be as prepared as possible.  There's a lot out there but much of it requires a dehydrator, which I do not own nor do I plan to own (Honestly I don't know if the raw thing is going to stick so I don't want to invest the cash until I decide whether to stay raw or not).  Thanks!
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[13 Jun 2009|09:54am]


I'm new to this community but i'm not so new to my lifestyle

i've been veg for over 3 years now, i started when i went on this trip to italy and amsterdam but it had nothing to do with the food
on nearly 24 hour flights you cant help but let your thoughts wander...leading me to think about roadkill and pets, and not knowing what you're actually eatting...and then to how sad this animal's family must be and how scared it must have been its whole life and those last moments........then tadah! i turned veg miles in the air over the atlantic

ive had an ed for over 2 years
i starved, binged, purged, repeat.

lately i haven't done such a thing, infact i thought i was finally better
until i realized how in love i am with this guy
and then i thought, oh fuck....oh shit...there's no possible way this god like man would ever love a morbidly obese whale like me

and apparently, lately ive been eatting like im prepairing for hybernation tomorrow but tomorrow isnt going to come
you can only imagine
so yesterday with my big ol' epiphany, i caught on to old habits
100crunches, 100 pushups, and 100 lunges in the morning, afternoon, and evening
special k with unsweetened soymilk for breakfast, salad, a fruit, and 1/4 of whatever mother has me eat

i feel better already

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f this [18 May 2009|09:27pm]

I am too fat for words; and no one can see it but me.

Someday I will be skinny, and then people will realize that I was right all along.
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Hello =] [18 May 2009|03:15pm]

I have started my journal to give support, answer questions, introduce new diet tips/tricks, and smash myths about diets to help others and myself through losing weight and reaching their goals.

I have also joined this group to give support and make friends. =]

Feel free to add me, I'm very friendly!

-Dr. Mediocre
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Hello [18 May 2009|12:25am]

[ mood | anxious ]

Hi everyone,

I'm a newbie. I think this might digress into a long rant so I apologise in advance! I've been vegan for a year and a half now, vegetarian before that for most of my life. I have never been diagnosed with an ed but I've had issues with my body for a long time. At the moment, i'm determined to lose a stone. I've lost a stone so far, but i've not been doing so well since i've been feeling stressed and emotional. I recently had a minor panic attack in a health food shop just because of all the choice. I've become so used to going to the supermarket and ignoring most of the isles. When I went somewhere where most of the food was a possibility, i freaked out and almost ended up in tears. I'd really like to just be able to talk about it, so I don't end up going on mad binges because i feel so upset with myself.
Here are my stats:
5ft 6"
CW:132 lbs
GW1: 112lbs
GW2: 100lbs

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Bleeding? [05 May 2009|08:30am]

 I have a cut that does not seem to want to stop bleeding.  Has anyone ever heard of blood clotting problems from an ED?
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binging [04 May 2009|03:29pm]


Who says vegans are hungrier?  I binged all friggin weekend. It was terrible--we had guests all weekend, so I played the good little housewife and cooked big meals all day and then we took our guests out to eat twice.  I felt ill and so uncomfortable, but I was zombie-eating--I didn't even realize what I was doing until it was too late.  I was thisclose to a nervous breakdown last night.  I am so ashamed of how I look and eat that every day is a complete nightmare.  I don't even care anymore if I get thin, i just want to be normal.  I just want to be able to sit down to a meal without over-analyzing what everyone else will think about how much/little I am eating, without adding up the calories in my head, without wondering how to make up for my sins later on.  I wish I could look at dessert and leave it alone without it nagging at me.  I wish I could just eat in moderation instead of this binge/restrict bullshit.  I have become such a ridiculous person.

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Hello [01 May 2009|12:52pm]

[ mood | awake ]

 I just wanted to introduce myself.  I've been a vegetarian for most of my life and have only recently (relatively) been battling with the idea that I've developed an eating disorder, but it's obvious to myself and others now that I have a problem.  I don't really associate my being a vegetarian with having an ED, but it's nice that there's a place that so uniquely caters to me.  I joined this site in hopes of getting support because I've been struggling by myself for too long.  Hopefully I can meet some new people!  Here are my stats:

Height: 5'7"
HW: 144lbs
CW: 128lbs
LW: 120lbs
GW1: 120lbs
GW2: 110lbs

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new:] [24 Apr 2009|01:22pm]

[ mood | artistic ]

i've been a vegaterian for about four years and a vegan for about a year now
and well i'm always told that i must be ana mia because of the way i eat, my obsessions, and the way i exercise
so how appropriate for me to join here
i personally dont think i have a ed but whatever
i'm fat
today i had a pot of chai tea and part of a cinnamon roll
this morning when i woke i had a cup of spiced chai tea and then i did 100 crunches, 50 lunges, 100 pushups and 50 twist crunches
lunch is when i ate part of the cinnamon rolland then i did 300 crunches, 150 lunges, 300 pushups, and 150 twist crunches.
i plan on repeating that later in the evening....minus the cinnamon roll wich i can't believe i even ate
i'm too ashamed to post my stats because i'm effing huge but i will tell you i'm 15 and  5'7.
so yeah
i'm new and i'd like to get to know all of you beautiful people:]

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new community [19 Apr 2009|04:40pm]

i don't know if this is allowed, but I created a new challenge community that I think will be kind of fun.  It's not specifically ED related but I created it to help myself (and hopefully others) focus on being healthy.  Each week I will post a challenge and everyone will have until Saturday to complete it.  On Sunday I'll post the next week's challenge and a list of winners (whoever completed the challenge and posted to let us know they did) from the previous week.

It's here if you want to join!

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Well I'll be darned [08 Apr 2009|08:37am]

[ mood | Positive ]

This article REALLY got me thinking. Vegetarianism = eating disorder. Hm?

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didn't know where else to post. [06 Apr 2009|04:56pm]

This community seems pretty quiet and I haven't posted here before, but I didn't know where else to go.  I left all the other ED communities because they were full of 12 year olds trying to fit into their bikinis, and I was so done listening to them all ask for tips on how to lose weight.

Anyway, last night my fiance discovered my "stash".  My diet pills, fabric tape measure, diet teas, protein water (no, not vegan, but at the time I bought it I didn't care), and so forth.  Pretty much every piece of physical evidence of my ED, which I have carefully hidden for years.  He pulled out the protein water and said, "Why on earth would you buy this, this is the dumbest thing I have ever seen" and proceeded to repeatedly ask me why I would purchase such items, tell me I'm fine the way I am, tell me it hurts him to know that I don't like myself, and mutter "it's not like it would work anyway, you don't even work out that much".

I was so completely shocked I didn't know what to do.  The things my ED has made me do are so gross to even think about that I was not about to share them with him.  He has been a faithful vegan for almost 15 years and I think he would be disgusted with me if he knew all the times I have bought yogurt and cheese while in binge-mode, only to get sick and regret it later.  Hell, it disgusts myself.  Anyway, I didn't say anything, I just told him to leave me alone and I went in the bathroom and cried.

When I came out he tried to get me to talk about it a couple more times but I just couldn't.  I tried to tell him once before and he told me I was making it up.  So what good would it even do now?

I don't know why I'm telling you guys this... maybe someone has an idea of what I should do about this.  He's not likely to drop it, but I'm not ready to seek treatment.  I have a baby so I honestly just don't have time (or a babysitter) to go to therapy.  But if I talk to him about it, I am afraid he's just going to say the same thing, that I look fine and I am making it up.  I guess I'm stuck either way.
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hello all [08 Feb 2009|10:17pm]

I have started a community looking at good natural well being, vegan and veggie diet and i used to have an ED but now im motivated to be healthy if your interest its http://community.livejournal.com/healthme/ please feel free to share your storys , recipies and health goals. Thanks all.x
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[07 Feb 2009|08:45am]
Hey guys.
I'm new here.
I'm 20 years old and have been a veggie for about 2 years.
I was diagnosed with anorexia at 13.
Then with EDNOS at 16.
Its been an on going battle in my life.
Recently, I started trying to lose the weight that I've put on in a healthy way.


GW4:145( )
GW6:135( )
GW7:125( )
GW8:115( )
UGW:110( )

Talk to me
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Food... [28 Jan 2009|01:34am]

I was in the grocery store a week ago, (weeee they are so much fun I could spend like 8 hours shopping if only I was on my own...) and I got a sample pack of a Vega whole food health optimizer. I haven't tried it yet, it says its 110 calories for the pack, and you add a cup of water so it's not like a teaspoon and it's gone kind of thing. Anyone tried of heard of this?
I was thinking of getting a big one, 110 cals at each meal, easy to manage, not to much thinking and its got some good stuff in it. I'll do a week or two to start, detox, see how it goes, rah rah rah. It's freezing so I'm not walking much, so I think I can manage on that. Maybe it will sort out my skin, so freaking dry and itchy!!!
I'm dying to have a snowball fight right now. SO BAD.

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Another newbie [25 Jan 2009|09:19am]

[ mood | blah ]

Hey everyone i just joined here! I've been vego for about a month after reading skinny bitch i was in tears reading that book! I recently read the soy zone. Has anyone tried the zone diet? It makes sense what he's saying about balancing protein carbs and fats. I just don't think i could eat all the food meant to in a day like 1100 cals or there abouts. Any thoughts on this? Hope to make friends here x

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Hey, guys. [20 Jan 2009|07:59pm]

N00b here, and I need tips on being veg. and a bulemic recovering bulimic. Here are my stats:
age: 13
height 5f 6in
CW 185 (ugh...)
GW 125 (Maybe lower)

Any tips on Carbs, Calories, and anything to avoid would be very, very useful, thanks!
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[22 Dec 2008|05:43pm]

 Hi, i'm Kay and i'm new here. I have been vegetarian for two years, lacto-ovo for the past year or so. I have an iron deficiency, and was wondering what kind of vitamins you take/recommend, and where to get them?
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